
“Let me ’splain. No, there is too much. Let me sum up.”
— Inigo Montoya
‘Member how I said in the Catoe house, there is The Plan and there is How Things Turn Out? Well, have I got another tale for you.
Kris and I decided that we are done having biological children. We are not done building our family, though. We want to adopt.
I felt drawn to China. Maybe because I used to read Mimi Smartypants. Maybe because Aja was my favorite character on Jem. I don’t really know why.
And I don’t really remember when the idea of adopting began. I blogged about it here and here.
Anyway, when Kris and I decided Catoe kid number three would be adopted, I began my research. I came across a statistic that the process to adopt from China would take 3-5 years and we would probably get a referral for a girl 6-14 months old.
So, The Plan:
Go ahead and prepare our dossier while I was pregnant with Cash; send it to China
Sit back and wait a few years for a referral; save up for the costly adoption
Adopt a girl, somewhat younger than Cash, years from now
But here is How Things Turned Out:
We chose a Christian adoption agency in Birmingham: Lifeline Children’s Services. We thought a secular agency might consider us loony when we say things like “We feel like God placed this desire in our hearts.”
Meanwhile, I went and interviewed the Strawn family, who adopted one of China’s “Waiting Children.” Read about that here.
Kris and I met with Lifeline in spring 2009. We liked them and they liked us, but we did not qualify to adopt from China. They suggested Nepal.
I researched adopting from Nepal. The process over there is on hold right now, but we were game to consider it. Since our original plan was out, we told Lifeline we would like to wait until after Cash was born and no longer a newborn to begin the home study.
However you adopt, be it from China or the foster care system here in Alabama, you must have a home study. It’s a great place to start.
With me so far? It’s summer of ’09 and we still plan to adopt, only not from China because we don’t qualify but maybe from Nepal, we don’t know yet?
Okay, so, the day Cash was born, as Kris was walking from the birth suite to the waiting room to gather the grandparents, his cell phone rang. It was Lifeline calling to say we were approved for the China program after all.
Wow, what crazy timing.
So we began our home study in October. The process does not have to take as long as it has for us, but we were in no rush. Also, we were trying to pay for this as we go.
Lifeline happens to be one of the agencies that receive a list of “Waiting Children” referrals a few times a year. We didn’t know that when we chose them as our agency.
Seems like God was leading us to the special needs program. Kris and I began considering what we thought we could handle.
I read all the summaries at Rainbow Kids of the various conditions a Special Needs child might have. I read so many that I forgot what some of them even were. Tetralogy of fallout, anyone?
Then I found the blog at No Hands But Ours. I found it immensely useful to read the accounts of parents who were raising kids adopted from the waiting children lists.
One particular post stood out to me:
It was as if God were whispering in my ear, “Let go of your dream. Accept my dream for you.”
Before I could second-guess that thought, I checked albinism and shoved the paper into the envelope.
She won’t have albinism, I thought as I mailed the SN sheet. Only one in 17,000 people are born with it.
I went and read more of the posts by “Cheeky’s mom.” I told Kris about it. How the mom hadn’t even checked albinism to begin with!
Kris said he didn’t know what to picture when I said a Chinese girl with albinism, so I sent him a link to the blog.
“She’s beautiful!” He told me after viewing it. “Let’s add albinism to our list.”
Okay.
That was Valentine’s Day weekend. (A.K.A. Chinese New Year weekend)
February 16th, Lifeline sent out a list of waiting children. I opened it up and scrolled through.
And there was “Liza.” A three-year-old girl with albinism.
Wow, what are the odds?
I e-mailed Lifeline and explained that my husband and I are still in the home study process and I didn’t know if we could look at profiles yet or not, but here’s the crazy thing, we just talked about albinism and here’s this girl…
I had her file by day’s end.
The panic began. She’s older than Ben; I can’t do this. We can’t afford three in daycare. What was I thinking?
I took her file to Kris. And where I was all panic, he was all peace.
That calmed me a little.
That night, I thought about when she was born. It was during the same season as Sophia, Bonnie and Lyla. Like she already fits with our family and friends.
Kris mentioned her the next day when he dropped the boys off at daycare. The director said she will work with us to find a scholarship for her.
So we’re… moving ahead. What does that mean?
We gather some information and send China a Letter of Intent. And we work on finishing our home study and dossier. If China sends us a Letter of Approval, then she’s ours.
I know what you’re thinking.
“This is you ‘summing’ up?’”